Salam and hello all....
Woahhh.. it's been a really really long time i didn't blog and babbling here... it's not that i dont have stories to share but the Time is just being jealous with me and us.... i know, most of my friends would also inquiry where is inur @ daia hidden all this while, just have my all the same circle life... wake up, go to work 8-5Pm sumtimes stay till 6PM, goin back home.. Fb-ing... LOL lots of stuff to do.. being busy with my studies also (errrrr bznya.. me rasa me super lazy diz sem)
BTW, i got a lot of things to do but i just wanna share that i feel so great lately but despite the greatness feeling, my love life still in dilemma.. LMAO.. oh jeez... idk why, my life is great but my love life is not.. Urmm.. soal hati kan... susa mo cakap... well.. if we're meant to be, finally we will end up together... the truth is... we've been a close friend almost 1 year right after i try to move on with my last failure relationship... eh... 1 of my friend said, y u never give up on ur studies but u lost hope in ur love life? its not that i lost hope, but it's traumatic.. huhuh.. the wound was deep and the scar is still there, but finally i move on after 2 years... i completely can forget him i mean... sometimes, the memories keep flashing back but it's not that hurt anymore... well.. i move on....
But now, i really have a hard time to confess my feeling to someone.. errr...... i dont have courage, i dont have braveness... i know i like him but idk if i love him.... but i think i've fallin far him.... slowly the closeness eat me up... the feelings grew constantly and i dont know how to tell him that i like him so much, doh inur.. pleasela... (drama again huh) idk what to categorize our relationship, he's not yet my bf aye, but we're really close, and he cannot be my bestfriend... urmm yes he is my special friend... :) it's complicated uh huh... i just keep prayin to Allah that someday he will open my heart for me and we can have our happy ending together... and start a new life together.... i think my heart is ready for new commitment, and to settle down... n i'm not young anymore as i will turn 27 next week.. eheh.. i hope i will have a great nice birthday next week.. i'm not expecting anything, dont wanna put too much hope as it will shattered but i'm hoping something miracle happen... :)
may Allah will always bless us n all Muslims in this world.. amin.................. i hope i gain happiness in this world and afterworld..... :) Life is not easy but but i try my best to live my life the fullest... :) and i do like you dear.... we hen xiang ni, wo zhende xihuan ni....
till then.. see you guys around soon......
